today i planned for my mum to drop me somewhere near han chiang ... then i would walk to *'s house.. why do i even bother doing this? just 2o mins walk...... * probably wont be happy seeing me.. jus annoyed.. or maybe burdened.. but i miss *.. im scared.. to see another person there.. or im scared * will not let me in the house.. * has lots goin on today so i wil probably b followin * around and seeeing * from far.. dear diary.. i seem like a dog dont i.. seriously sometimes i dont need people to tell me im stupid.. i know it. but its hope and love that keeps me going. until im not capable of loving someone.. i will always love *. i love you........i really do. if only * loves me back.. i hope when im walkin to *'s house.. a car hits me. i rather hurt that way. damn it.
---to mr cupid,
give me the strength to get through today.
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