diary...... today with my own eyes.. i saw * with another person.. my tears fell. my heart ached. still is aching. i love you i love you i love you...i was screaming i love you in my heart.. the coward that i am just cried n kept it in of course. what could i do? love and loyalty is not enough. in this world right now.. will it be enough.. i know im not supposed to do things to hurt myself now.. especially with stpm comin.. but i read *'s blog.. then our blog.. i cried in the showers for 45 mins.. then slept whole evening.. was under blanket.. crying. i know.. i cry a lot.. sound so stupid.. my heart hurts n i cant tell anybody.. my mum would kill me if she sees me.. my friends would worry..*? * will only ask me to take care.. then leave me. so wat if * leaves u?! stand up and move on.. i still love *..* only thinks that i need * cause of stpm n mum.. no.. its beacuse i wan to have a future with you.. now.. i will only see you and know that.. my future would always be... seeing * from far.. n loving *. i will cry. but i wont stop lovin.
---to mr cupid,
i hav been a good girl.. i really hav. help me
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